I saw him standing there with his back facing me.
It was at that moment, I felt everything was so right.
Never mind about where we are, who we are.
There was just only one thing that went through my mind.
That was to throw my arms around him and bring him close to me, and to hold him for an eternity.
Strangely though, I shrugged off the feeling and started to just smile at him instead of carrying out what that had gone through my mind and heart.
What had invoked such strong feelings?
I seriously have no idea.
Or am I just plainly weird? To harbour such dark thoughts?

~~~~
"I didn't know who she was...
But I felt her... and for a brief moment...
I felt her love... I felt her warmth against mine...
It felt so blissful...
And as fast as it came... it dissapeared...
Only then did I realise it wasn't real...
And as I turned around to face you...
All you did... was smile at me...
I knew you loved me... and even if we didn't know each other...
I felt... at that moment... at peace...
And deep in my heart... I knew I loved you too...
But we both walked our seperate ways and carried on with our dull lives...
Till fate could let us meet... once again..."

~~~~~


I turned around.
I knew i had to.
I couldnt resist.
The feeling was too strong to be ignored.
I need a glimpse of him again.
Desperately.
Even if it meant just looking at his back as he walked away.
Blissful.. it was just like a fairy tale where prince charming comes along.
Except that this time, he didnt stay beside her.
Peaceful.. for that one moment where i met his eyes and smiled.
He wasn't like anyone i met.
Then again, what do i know of him?
For that moment...
For that moment to happen again..
Even for the briefest contact..
I would give anything
For that moment to happen again....
Was that what everyone is talking about?
Love?
The purest of true love?
Or was it just blind infatuation caused by a moment where cupid struck?

~~~~~~

"And so I walked on...
But still... she was the only thing on my mind...
Till someone pulled my arm...
That was when things hit me... it was my girlfriend...
And as she pulled me away...
I arched and turned to look back...
At that beautiful face...
At that lovely smile...
At her...
And right there and then...
My heart stopped...
For my eyes did not play tricks on me...
I saw her face...
And it was etched...
With pain...

And as I was tugged beyond sight of her...
I felt dread... and grief...
For the rest of the day...
My heart was empty..."

~~~~~


Out of nowhere, a pair of fair arms reached out.
As slender and as fair as it could possibly be.
I followed the movement of the arms. ..
The slightest "o" was formed
Reality sets in..
I turned away
Pushing my way blindly through the crowd of students that was passing by
Greeted by insults for the relentless pushing against the current.
I headed straight for the toilet..
Where in the mirror,
I saw her tears rolled down silently.
Her fingers touched my face,
Her widened eyes was surprised with what I was looking at..
Tears..
Who was he that could reduced me to this form?
He was just a complete stranger..
Yet.. I felt like I had known him for all my life..
A sense of deja vu..

I squared up my shoulders
With a defiance shake of my hair,
I walked out with my head lifted up high
As if nothing have ever happened,
This....
This was what I am good at..
Or so I believe
Hiding my emotions from my physical being.
But underneath all,
There is only one thought that was coursing through..
I had given my heart away..
To him..

~~~~~~~

"

For the rest of the day I spent my time staring out the window...
Where were you, love? How are you? After you saw me with her...
I didn't think you'd ever want to see me again...

But I was wrong... I saw you... at our local cafeteria...
You walked up to me calmly and sat behind me...
But I knew behind that that calm exterior...
Emotions raged like a thunderstorm...
I knew... cause I felt it too... I wanted to burst out screaming...
The same fire... the same burning desire...
I longed for you...

For that entire hour... I did nothing but sneak glances at you...
I knew you were doing the same...
But somehow... whenever I looked at you... you weren't looking back...
And as I turned back to my friends... I felt your gaze... all over me...

And then that night... I saw you from the window...
I ran down as fast as my legs could carry me...
But when I reached... you dissapeared...

My dear... my love is as wide as the ocean... and can digest as much...
How can I express such feelings... such mad rushes of emotions...
They feel so wrong... yet comfortably right at the same time...
I need you... I want you... I love you...
I...
Love...
You...

That was how I feel asleep that night...
And countless dreams of you after...
In a world where we could be free to love...
To give... for eternity...
And for that heavenly night...
I knew... somewhere out there...
You were having the exact same dreams...
Of lakeside houses...
Of us sitting together...
By the warm fireplace...
Together..."

~~~~~~

Time passed...
I didn't know how much... I just knew...
Who cared about class? Or friends...
I had to find you... to tell you I loved you...

And so I ran... with all my might...
With all my heart... I ran...
I ran for you... I ran for me...
I ran... for us...

An eternity ebbed away...
And I finally saw you...
Walking out of one of the lecture halls...
Smiling... with your friends...
Did you know I exist.. my heart throbbed for your existence...

I followed you... all the way to the cafeteria...
I walked up to you as calmly as I could...
I opened my mouth... just as you looked up...
I ran for the nearest seat... my heart couldn't take anymore...

For the whole hour... 2 hours... who knew how long...
I kept turning around to see you... to say to you...
But each time I saw that pretty face across you...
I couldn't bring myself to say it...

I followed you home... it seemed like stalking...
I stood outside your home... you lived quite exclusively as it seemed...
I waited a whole afternoon and evening before I got to see you again...
And there you were... just as handsome... just as... you...

You saw me... You looked shocked... I feared confrontation...
And so... I ran...
It rained soon after... a reflection of how I felt deep inside...
All the way home... soaked... but I didn't notice...

I cried that night...
It was pointless... I wasn't one to cry...
Things seemed so messed up... emotions... so extravagant...
Cried myself to sleep...

But I was happy after...
I dreamt of me and you...
At a lakeside cottage...
Sitting by a warm fireplace...
Just you and me...
Without a care in the world...
A small eternity together...
Of bliss... of hope... of tomorrow...

by the unholy one